1 month

So as of this past Saturday, Anthony and I have been married for a month! Time sure goes by quickly! I can't believe the the Wedding is already a past event. We went from 10 months of planning to the month of hell before the big day, to the the big day and then it being over as quickly as a flash of lightning. I struggled with some sadness about the wedding being over and this was hard. Our Wedding was amazing and it sadned me that it was all over so quickly. Taking my dress off after how long I had waited to put it on and wear it, it was the first kicker. Then the hair, then saying goodbye to our out of town family/guests, to just about everything you could think of. We went on an amazing honeymoon where I was nicely distracted so this was good. Then we came home, and I started to feel those sad feelings again. I was "happy", no doubt about this, it was just a hard change for me. The Wedding is such a fog to me and I kept saying how I just wished I could of had the day back so I could re-live each moment again so there wouldn't be this fog there anymore. The fog is what kept me "calm" and in control. I am so blessed and I couldn't have asked for a more special wedding day!

Being married is definitely a life altering adjustment...at least for me it is. It was just "me" for 30 years and it's been hard to adjust my patterns to fit the now "US". I'm feeling less sad these days and I'm glad. I just have to put in perspective that everyone's wedding day ends and it's not just mine, that I'm not alone in this that it's part of getting married. The day can't last forever! We are adjusting well and we are happy! I look forward to the future and I will be sharing more stories of our "just married" life together!:)