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So I decided to update my blog again! I always find something I like better. I wanted it to look freshing and not so dark. I love black and hot pink together, but the background I had choosen just wasn't doing it for me.

I'm hoping that one day soon this blog with be about my husband and I's journey through getting pregnant and having a baby. I found out some great news yesterday and I feel much better about things. Having fertility issues is not easy to cope with when you have dreamnt of being pregnant since you were a little girl. It's hard to find joy when you hear everyone else around you is pregnant....and it happened on their first try! This has been hard for me. I know that the day will come soon for us, I just hope things work out for us and that whatever we have to do to get pregnant that it works. I don't want to go into a lot of detail because suprisingly this is a personal issue for me that I have decided and it's not the right time to openly talk about it if that makes sense. Don't jump to any conclusions please. Remember, I could be thinking about anything like for example the Dr's orders that I gain 10 lbs to have a healthy pregnancy. So in due time, I will share my thoughts and "our" decisions. It's hard to think about becoming pregnant when you have tried to prevent it for so many years. Knowing that it's ok now to get pregnant because we are "Married" is such a strange thought for me. Like I'm allowd to now and no one can judge me or think differently of me because I am now married. It's exciting and scary at the same time.

It's a hard decision to bring a child into this world when we are facing such hard times with the economy so bad. I have always desired 3-4 kids, but realistically we wouldn't be able to afford 4 kids and this is not fair to the kids. It is very hard to see couples having 3-4 if not more kids when they are living off one income that is poverty level. It disgusts me that people would continue making the choice tohave more babies when they KNOW THEY CAN'T AFFORD IT! The hubby and I want to make sure that we can provide for our kids and that we can provide them with the best life possible.

We have a plan and it's going to be a journey!!!!!